"I couldn't handle my feelings of inferiority and fear towards you. I was only protecting myself by making myself think it was admiration." Ritsu was as still as stone as he said what was absolutely never to be said. But even as he was still, the words came out easily. It was like a great breath he had been holding in for as long as he could remember finally being released.
No--it wasn't quite like that. It wasn't relief he wanted. He wanted it to hurt. He wanted his brother to be hurt like he had all this time. That's what he felt.
"I was scared of you. I never knew what you might do if you got stressed out. We could never even have a fight as brothers. That would be suicide. So I stayed out of your way so as never to cause trouble between us."
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Date: 2024-01-05 07:52 am (UTC)No--it wasn't quite like that. It wasn't relief he wanted. He wanted it to hurt. He wanted his brother to be hurt like he had all this time. That's what he felt.
"I was scared of you. I never knew what you might do if you got stressed out. We could never even have a fight as brothers. That would be suicide. So I stayed out of your way so as never to cause trouble between us."